Find Myself Back
For the frist time I stepped forward a little. A brave try for me. Just as the saying goes you never know until you try and you never try until you really try. So I tried though there is still much uncertainty. But the point is that I tried and got to know some facts. Good or bad, I tried, without regret. There is uncertainty, but the rest is destiny which can never be forced.
I should have tried for many times, but shrunk back time and time again. I just lounge my days away without any ambition. It sounds like a negative attitude, so it does. No news, no progress, just daily routine. Boring though, never dare have a change, indulged in self-denial, self-deprecation. Encouraged,determined, but quit in the last second, for lack of courage. I just stay where I was and keep the so-call nature, which turns out to be conservative thinking, a great hindrance to happiness .
I’ve been not myself for so many years. It pains to live in disguise. Time to find the real me back and say good bye to this false one. Go, go, go! There is nothing to fear at all!
[ Last edited by phu_grassman on 2011-8-21 at 19:22 ] |