[交流] say good-bye to my old days

sometimes when i am here about to write something,but i don't know where should i go first.i mean, at first, i have a lot of words wanna say,but ,you know,my ability of using English is limited.so i can't express that freely.anyway, today i wanna make my decision to say good-bye to my old days,and with the witness of your guys,i will build my new life.

i know some guys here are very familiar with me, because we are lab sisters and brothers. but i am not afraid of that,i say what i want to say. i will change myself,and this time i am serious. i don't know when i become like these:do not like study,do not like research, do not like experiment,and always leave school to find another world which is not belong to me.and i don't know when i start to lie and lie so easily.i don't know how i do these. but actually i did. i thought i was a boy who would take security to girls.but now,what i did does not follow what i said.i am sorry for all of these. and thank you for smiles you guys give for me.i will do what i should do.

the another world i have said is not suitable for me. though eating need no money and drinking with girls around,that 's the life to them, not for me. i want a healthy life.i do not want to eat and play until 3.am everyday. actually, every time being called i reluctant to leave school and to take the bus to there.you know,i went there out of the relationship,just out of you are my best friend. the girls being invited most were material girls. the girls there are nothing but beautiful.talking nonsense and drinking and playing, that's the waste of money in my eyes. i don't like the life like this.my body is weak, i can't stay up all night.so next time i will refuse.

i don't know what my future will be like.but i am thankful that i have a good teacher and a big lab family.we are together and help each other.when i first came into this school,to be honest, i was a little desperate. but now i know there always road before you.i am not a good students,and not a qualified lab brother. i always delay the task the teacher give me and shout to the little brother when they are not doing good.but my brothers always help me,and the little brothers always forgive me.maybe the teachers think i am capable to do somethings, but i learn nothing from i came into this lab.the only one thing i learned is how to make people laugh. i want to prove myself through my efforts and i hope i can.

about love,i don't know whether i should love again,but i think maybe i will take the advice our ‘ShiMu' have gave us, which said we would find the one to marry immediately when we get the job.yes, who dare to marry you if you have no job.i did love someone,and maybe i do love her.maybe she still have feelings to me. but whatever, i am a poor man with little courage.i don't want to hurt and to be hurt. just let it be.

today i have said so much, tomorrow i hope i can read my paper and do the experiment.and in the near future i will find a good job i like. good luck to all guys in emuch. thanks for your attention.